The Biggest Betrayal on my Healing Journey – Became my gift to others 🌹
Healing trauma involves the body, mind, heart, and soul – it is not one-size-fits-all – there are many helpful modalities to help you heal.
However, the modalities heavily rely on the facilitator’s ability to energetically hold space for the transformation.
A person can only facilitate as far as they have come and depends on their ability to be present for another’s healing.
Over and over again trauma is presented as a mindset issue and over and over again people who are in their darkness of trauma will hit wall after wall.
Trauma is stored in the body like a coffin until we locate it, feel it, and heal it it will hold us back in all areas of life. The good news is we can heal our bodies.
When we feel as though we arrive more is revealed…
I had dedicated my entire life to healing sexual assault from a young age, So why then 14 years ago was I assaulted again – IN A HEALING SESSION?
I knew right away within my body that this 5’7” man shuffling his sandals on the rug approached me and my entire body shuttered.  I came here as a referral from a friend for a bodywork treatment in Downtown, LA.  Little did I know a whole new chapter of my life that would span the next 10 years of my life was about to begin.
I was 30 years old accomplished, independent, intuitive, and confident Yoga and Barre instructor living in my own cute place off Abbott Kinney in Venice, Beach California.
I was so clear sober and felt on top of the world.
I was well along my path of self-development and healing and yet my nervous system short-circuited when I saw the “healer” who attacked me physically and sexually during a massage.
Part of me thought:
“No fucking way am I going in a room alone with this creep”
While another part of me thought :
“Stop being such a bitch, this poor guy is coming here to make some money and earn a living.”
Soooo, I went with betraying my instincts and intuition and it turned out to be the battle of my life for my life in more ways than one.