I fear losing the connection


May 15, 2023

Sometimes I feel so connected to the spirit in the veil is so thin, while other times, I fear losing the connection and wonder if it was all real, to begin with.

Sometimes I feel like nature is my healer and the trees can talk to me, birds are singing for me, and the sun is warming my body and heart.
Sometimes I feel so fragile, and nature is my enemy.
The wind could swirl me up and take me away, or a wave could wash me out to allow me to settle down in the dumps of the ocean.

Sometimes I feel so embodied other times I don’t recognize my own face in the mirror.

Sometimes my body feels strong, my organs feel healthy, and other times I feel fragile to disease and my body could stop working in the blink of an eye.

Sometimes I’m so scared of other humans, I feel like prey…
Sometimes I see strangers my soul cracks rivers in my heart.

Sometimes I feel so connected to this life in this world, I fear death other days, I pray for a peaceful death to leave all of this pain and hurt, and destruction of this world behind.

Sometimes my heart loves freely, and other times I fear love itself because of the hurt and loss. .

Sometimes I feel so strong and grounded, connected to earth well; other times, I could float away with the fairies.

Sometimes I feel like Jetsetting to unexplored lands, while other times, I never want to leave the safe cocoon of my house ever again.

Sometimes I’m so hurt by people in this lifetime, and other times I remember when I was the one who hurt and abused, and tortured in past lifetimes.

Sometimes, I feel so alive, present, focused, and aware of my body, and sometimes could die of overwhelm by being in a body on earth.

What I do know to be true is every moment in this life is precious and fleeting.
With all hardship comes ease.
We are all here to share our creativity.

Creativity is life in service of life…

CREATE: write, paint, sing, dance, move, draw, create, and share it shifts more than is visible.

Love,
@trishbianco 🌹🌹🌹🌹